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Fetish in porn is purely subjective. Both physically and emotionally. Things that people are okay with may be bad for you. You may to some extent enjoys that, as one often would when commiting taboos. But in the end you feel that it's wrong, hence the guilty feeling. Then why do you keep doing that? Just stop. Distance yourself from these.

Only you can hold yourself back, only you can stand in your own way. Only you can help yourself.

You alone, can make the decision to change to make you comfortable with what you desire to be in life.

It is logical that it is easier to avoid this, but I feel some kind of envy that someone does not go crazy over these things and calmly digests them. And I have to run away with my tail between my legs because of my weakness.

Why did you envy those who can enjoy doing things that makes you feel guilty? Just because others don't feel guilty doing something, doesn't mean that you must also do and feel the same. Some people don't feel guilty raping and killing others, do you think you should also be able to do that? No, obviously. And not submitting to doing bad things is definitely not a weakness.

As long as you keep making excuses, you prevent yourself from getting out of the situation you're in.

To work on yourself is the best thing you can do. Accept that you are not perfect, but you are enough. And then start working on everything that destroys you. Your insecurities, your ego, your dark thoughts. You will see, in the end you're going to make peace with yourself. And that's the greatest thing in the world.

You may stumble. You may fall. It's okay. The most important thing is to keep trying.

Remember, recovery is not a race. You don't have to feel guilty if it takes you longer than you thought it would. Afterall, recovery is about progression, not perfection.

How do you separate the original character from his hentai version?

it's easy to spot the difference between what a sexualized character would say vs. what the official character would say. my favorite girl would never sit down and give the guy a blowjob just because she sees a bulge. the writing in bad hentai just make it so obvious.

If I like a character so much I grow attached to them, I avoid out-of-character hentai

30 Hail Marys, and remember to be grateful that you don't have something worse, like an inflation fetish.

in all seriousness, fiction and personal fantasies are on a continuum. Instead of making up a scenario on your head 100% on your own, such as when dreaming, you are letting someone else do part of it for you. It's not some kind of violation. There's no point in feeling any attachment / anxiety / guilt / what have you. You don't get attached to dreams, do you?

Why would you feel guilty doing it in the first place?

Why would you feel guilty doing it in the first place?

Because I have a rich imagination? Or heightened empathy? Well, for example, I'll fap to Card Collector Sakura. Hentai with her participation will imply rape and so on. Now imagine that in my head there is an original Sakura who sees me fap to such content. She is kind of disappointed with me. Like I love her sweet and kind. But at the same time I allow myself to fap to such dirty things. I feel that by doing such things I betray my pure love for her. And she sees this and gets upset. And because of this, I feel ashamed to watch original content with her.

I hope I managed to convey the chain of thoughts correctly. I have already worked through these things. And the advice that was given to me above helped.

This is just how my brain works. The characters are not real. But my love for them is real. And I seem to betray this love when I fap to some content with rapes of these characters.

Some people have less attachment to the characters. Some people see them as a set of pixels or lines. But I get attached to them easily, so my experiences are more vivid because of such things.

I'm fine. But I just decided it was necessary to respond to your comment!

Be nice to people in the real world.

Hentai is not worth fapping to since it is usually of low-quality. Fap to some real porn instead.

Consider saving up for a rainy day. Eventually the saving periods become longer and longer until you don't really bother with it anymore.

Hentai is hardly worth watching. It is usually of exceptionally low-quality. The real porn is the only porn that is worth looking at TBH.

Hentai is hardly worth watching. It is usually of exceptionally low-quality. The real porn is the only porn that is worth looking at TBH.

But only if it's AI-generated.

you just gotta shut your eyes and yank hard

Hey, I can see you're struggling with a lot of conflicting feelings about your fantasies. First off, it's important to understand that having certain fantasies, even ones you feel conflicted about, doesn’t mean you’re a bad person or betraying something you care about. It's normal for people to have fantasies that don’t align with their values, but that doesn’t mean they act on them in real life.

You don’t have to feel ashamed of your fetishes. They're a natural part of who you are, and it's okay to have these thoughts as long as you separate fantasy from reality. It's possible to enjoy a character in one context (e.g., an anime) and appreciate them in another (e.g., hentai) without betraying their original character. The key is not letting those fantasies affect your real-life actions or how you feel about your values.

If the guilt becomes overwhelming, or if you feel trapped in a cycle of obsessive thoughts, it might help to take a break from acting on those fantasies for a while. In the end, be kind to yourself—there’s no shame in what you feel, and it doesn’t define who you are.

You should as a natural reaction. It's normal