嘛, 我是輝夜
大家應該都知道我在三月左右那時退休
有興趣知道當中原因的人
可以看一看這個 Post
QUOTE(黄金の魔女 @ Jul 14 2023, 10:44)
I didn't clarify and (tried to) keep my retirement on a low-profile side. But since one of the decisive factors has now been, hopefully, permanently resolved, I guess I should do some write-up to update the 0 people that care. I'm not that great at self-reflective writings, so sorry if this comes off as disorganized or rant-like.
So long story short, it was a combination of physical health and mental health factors. Back in late 2022, I was diagnosed with tuberculosis. Nothing hard to treat in general, but unfortunately the strain I had was a drug-resistant variant. This means that I had to rely on the somewhat questionable second-line treatment. The prescribed antibiotics were effective, sure, but they also came with noticeable side effects - constant fatigue, itchiness, diarrhea, etc. Vision problems were notably one of the few side effects that I completely did not anticipate, and they seriously hampered my ability to continue with my moderation "duties"*.
(*To clarify, the "moderators" around here aren't obligated to perform any task. I don't believe that Tenboro sees us as "moderators" in the traditional sense anyway, but more so "advisory members that could be entrusted with a few little extra quirks and maybe not be a total jackass about it". Either way, the point is that the "duties" I had were entirely self-imposed.)
That brings us to the mental health side of things - being the Big Bad Super Mod™ simply becomes too stressful for my liking. Note that I don't intend to claim myself as the second Joe or anything important, this is just referring to the fact that I had all the "moderator tools" available (and most "positions"), plus an aspiration to become a "sort-everything" mod like Joe.
This moderation mentality turned out to be a bit too stress-inducing for one ordinary person to handle. It was getting to the point where it impaired my ability to make well-informed judgments. While I don't intend to point fingers at certain members, the fact remains that interactions with these very special people had led to some spill-over effects on my part. For instance, the discussion regarding "gender bender", the vTuber agency tags, and "rough grammar" could have been handled a bit more graciously back then. The ultimate wake-up call was probably the heated discussion on how a tag downvote post should be formatted. It was at that point that I finally realized "yeah, maybe I don't really have the necessary face skin for this gig".
So I decided to go easy on the moderation game a bit, multiple times throughout my short career actually. However, the idea that I'm holding all the VIP Glory Ticks™ but really not doing a bunch didn't sit well with me tbh. The constant "will do this on Monday, but actually no I'm busy so delayed haha" posts I made in the namespace thread were wearing me down a lot as well. Considering that I was in a very real danger of dying from TB + I have a family to feed, I realized that the EH gig simply is just too much for a dumb dumb like me to handle.
As such, I PM'd Tenboro for my retirement back in March/April. I didn't keep anyone updated on these back then aside from the need-to-know basis. Sorta not a fan of telling my friends and colleagues that "heya, me dying haha". I'd imagine they heard enough bad news IRL anyway. But seeing that I'm (again, hopefully) making a definitive recovery from TB, thought that I at least owe these folks an explanation.
Will I be back as an EH mod? I donno, it is a possibility, but my current motivation remains low, and seems like the site is more than operational without me (I don't see myself as a good or important enough mod anyway). I'm currently helping Shank to sort out some namespace requests this summer, but outside of that, I don't really want to be involved in any capacity.
And that's basically it I suppose. Hope it doesn't come off as disrespectful or arrogant or something negative, that wasn't really the intention of this stupid text wall.
簡單翻譯: 肺結核 + 工作家庭原因 + 壓力 = 退休
之前病情有點不穩定, 所以沒有發任何公布
現在 (應該) 受控了, 但短期內也應該不會投入太多時間在 EH
中文討論區: 杜拉漢有話要說 [禁無意義的水跟簽到], The Chinese discussion thread of declining quality.
Jul 15 2023, 05:47
