[X] My Assistant

Please, discuss.

I'm not exactly in love with Brad either, but isn't this a little much? Besides, I don't think he's dumb or self-absorbed enough to take the bait.

Yeah, I know, I've got no place sticking up for the guy, but nobody else will.

This post has been edited by FourThirteen: Mar 19 2010, 08:19

You're a good guy, 413.



Also, three times.

I"ve got it! My penis looks like a flesh covered turkey baster! Now I can get on with my life, again. (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/happy.gif)

Ah, Brad's okay. Just needs a cookie, like all of us.

It's just Alpine's dupe account, again :3

I like him better than Alpine though

Probably dissin on us with the "why the long dicks posts" thread

Naw his ok

This post has been edited by (sic): Mar 19 2010, 22:04

I think Alpo is a pretty alright guy.

There are far whinier people here than Brad in fairness; see Dave ; see French Tom.

What's it like sitting on your own nuts, Anto?

Can't complain.

i think he acts like a dick because he has an incredibly small penis.

Ho-ho-hoouuuu![/wilson impression]

i think he acts like a dick because he has an incredibly small penis.

What me? I'll have you know....actually, none of your business.

He's talking about BradRapekit, fool.

BradRapekit.

Please, discuss.

Okay, you want to discuss my behavior on the forums, fine, let's discuss it. Word of warning, this is very thorough and may be my longest post yet, so I have restated the concluding point at the bottom labeled tltr.

I started out on this forum posting mostly on the RP section, the Rules & FAQ's section, and it The Vigilante. Then, I made the mistake of opening a serious political discussion among a forum of what I thought at the time was made up of fair, liberal minded hentai enthusiasts. Apparently when I assumed that a hentai site run by a self proclaimed "godless liberal" would be predominantly filled with open minded liberals, I was wrong. Unfortunately, the weekend after I posted this I went off my antidepressants, which I have been on since I was 8, because I can no longer afford them. I had been on the site for two weeks, and my mistake for making a political thread resulted in me getting more negative karma in one day than I had gotten positive karma in two weeks. What that should have told me was that this isn't the proper forum for serious political discussion. However, the withdrawals had just started getting really bad, and I overreacted, leading me to delete what I written in virtually every post I had made at the time, which was around 30 posts. What you don't know is just how bad I was freaking out from withdrawals at the time. Between deletions of my individual posts, I had yelled and threatened my mom, threw things across the room, collapse on the floor in tears, and even stomped up and down on the floor yelling in a temper tantrum. I was in a seriously warped frame of mind, even more than is normal for me.

Eventually, the withdrawals passed, although my disposition is different now that I am no longer on antidepressants. Since being off the antidepressants, I have had this constant rage building up inside me, and even though it's been about two months since being off of them, I had been on them for 16 years, including my entire adolescence, so I'm still learning how to deal with it. I'm also having to go through all the self discovery I went through in my teens again, and rediscover who I really am and what I want to do with my life. It feels like that the past 16 years have been a lie, that I was on a medicine that changed who I was, and now I have to explore who I am without that medication altering how I think. I apologize if I come off as an asshole, douche bag, ignoramus, or am condescending or rude, but I am coping with a lot of things internally right now, and I my brain was wired properly in the first place.

Even after overreacting and having a huge blow out in which I vowed to never return to the site, my withdrawals faded and with some sense restored to me, I realized I didn't have anywhere else left to go, so I returned. I tried to essentially start over, putting the past behind me and apologizing for what a huge ass I had been. It had been my lack of discretion that led me to make a politically oriented thread, it was my fault I got negged, and it was my own issues that led me to blowing up. I could only accept responsibility for my actions and move on.

As I resumed posting things on the site, I soon found myself under criticism and scorn again, but this time not for anything I said, but rather, how much of it I say. My thoughts are unclear and rambling, and I tend to restate the same thing over and over again in an attempt to make sure I'm not misunderstood. Plus, I don't make my points short and sweet but go on to explain the how, and why, and other various dynamics. Now, some people just said that my posts were too long, but others started coming out and insulting me for it. Letting things drop has never been something I have been good at; I've been known to have been forcefully separated from situations to calm down, only to fume and get angrier and then angrier, and then act calm as I'm lead back to class, only to return and immediately resume where I was twice as angry and with half as much sense as I had before. So, when someone insults me on here, I not only refute the claim, but with anger clouding my judgment. When the insults continue, I continue to argue my point, getting more angry and less reasonable each time until finally after a few back and forths I am at the point I would argue that the grass is purple.

Regardless of whether my problems stem from a miscommunication or withdrawals from medication, those problems are my own, and with the surprising lack of empathy from many of the members on this site, it wouldn't be reasonable to expect many of you to take that into consideration. However, that doesn't mean I will let you overlook the one glaringly obvious mistake in your attempts to brand me as an uber-annoying blockhead. Most of my raging outbursts were caused by yourselves. People out of the blue attack my good name and insult my character, flinging petty names like retard or royal douche at me, and then I throw a hissy fit. Even if I do carry on and not let it drop, since I'm playing defense to accusations on my character, it is not my fault they get out of hand since I am not the aggressor and have the right to defend myself.

Many of you that see fit to ridicule me; Radixius, Boggyb, Cmal, Spectre, Marvin666, Bladejtr, among others; are guilty of creating arguments with me by insulting or being rude to me. Then you point to how long I carried it on and how angry I was and say that it makes me a douche. You know what's so ridiculous about that? That makes you the douche, as you were the ones who started insulting me when I was just adding to whatever topic it was at the time, and then when I get all angry and worked up about something, trying to act like you aren't the source of the very behaviors in me you claim to despise. You claim that my angry outbursts are annoying to you, yet you are often the ones that start insulting me or the things I say out of the blue. I take credit for my own behavior, but I do have the right to defend myself from baseless accusations, so you are the ones that let the proverbial monster out of the cage. If you hadn't started insulting me or treating me rudely out of the blue, I wouldn't have gotten all bent out of shape. Take credit where it's due, you insulted and verbally attacked me. Then you use the arguments you started as proof that I am a retard, royal douche, Korean, annoying poster, or whatever else you call me. Guess what? You were the ones that attacked me, so that makes you all those things, and that makes me the victim.

All that being said, there are a few instances where I was the instigator. There was the political thread, all of that was my fault, and there have been a few here and there that I will take at least partial responsibility for. However, when you ridicule me and I get riled up, that's on you! There are two cases where I will admit my initial comments were uncalled for, here and here. I admit I was out of line in making the comments, and I will take responsibility only for the initial comment. The arguments that ensued were each individual's own fault. What makes this even more clear is when you factor in that in both instances, the post directly after mine were guilty of doing the same thing they accused me of to me, and were not posting to make a point, only to irritate and annoy me. These two instances, Bunbun himself got angry at me, but I have explained how he was blaming the wrong person in both cases in PM, and out of respect for his moderator position will not go into detail for me here except to say he got mad at me not just for my initial comment, but all that ensued. When people decide to attack me for doing the same thing they've done to me in the past, any ensuing arguments are a result of there own hypocrisy.



tltr: Many of you who are calling me names are actually the ones who are annoying, douche bags, or just plain retarded. You insult me to draw me into reacting, and when I do, you then say that somehow makes me the annoying, douche-y, retarded person. Since you were the instigator, and who called me names, all you've proven is that you yourselves are deserving of the names you call me. You were the ones who attacked me, the only name you have proven is fitting of me is victim, and you know it since you are my abusers.



*There is one instance on this site where I am guilty of victimizing another the way I have been victimized, it was to Anto of the Sand when he first started here, and I have apologized and admitted my own wrongdoing in doing so. Anto, I apologize I attacked you and made fun of you in the beginning, it was wrong and very pathetic of me to emulate the same behavior I've been treated to and inflict it on you in an attempt to blend in. You have more class than any of the others who call you names and by dropping to their level I only make myself into the very names they have called me. Forgive me Anto, for I have wronged you, and I am so very sorry that I have done so.

You'll never learn, will you?

I give you some credit for calling me "cockasaurus" and to a lesser extent "cuntsicle."

Whoever put you on antidepressants for 16 years is a moron who doesn't understand that their proper use is to let you step outside the illness just long enough to see its shape, not a substitute for learning to deal with it on your own. Withdrawl is most definitely a bitch, too.

That said, acting all butthurt just goads people.

I'm not exactly in love with Brad either, but isn't this a little much? Besides, I don't think he's dumb or self-absorbed enough to take the bait.

Yeah, I know, I've got no place sticking up for the guy, but nobody else will.

You sir, were wrong.

Okay, you want to discuss my behavior on the forums, fine, let's discuss it. Word of warning, this is very thorough and may be my longest post yet, so I have restated the concluding point at the bottom labeled tltr.

I started out on this forum posting mostly on the RP section, the Rules & FAQ's section, and it The Vigilante. Then, I made the mistake of opening a serious political discussion among a forum of what I thought at the time was made up of fair, liberal minded hentai enthusiasts. Apparently when I assumed that a hentai site run by a self proclaimed "godless liberal" would be predominantly filled with open minded liberals, I was wrong. Unfortunately, the weekend after I posted this I went off my antidepressants, which I have been on since I was 8, because I can no longer afford them. I had been on the site for two weeks, and my mistake for making a political thread resulted in me getting more negative karma in one day than I had gotten positive karma in two weeks. What that should have told me was that this isn't the proper forum for serious political discussion. However, the withdrawals had just started getting really bad, and I overreacted, leading me to delete what I written in virtually every post I had made at the time, which was around 30 posts. What you don't know is just how bad I was freaking out from withdrawals at the time. Between deletions of my individual posts, I had yelled and threatened my mom, threw things across the room, collapse on the floor in tears, and even stomped up and down on the floor yelling in a temper tantrum. I was in a seriously warped frame of mind, even more than is normal for me.

Eventually, the withdrawals passed, although my disposition is different now that I am no longer on antidepressants. Since being off the antidepressants, I have had this constant rage building up inside me, and even though it's been about two months since being off of them, I had been on them for 16 years, including my entire adolescence, so I'm still learning how to deal with it. I'm also having to go through all the self discovery I went through in my teens again, and rediscover who I really am and what I want to do with my life. It feels like that the past 16 years have been a lie, that I was on a medicine that changed who I was, and now I have to explore who I am without that medication altering how I think. I apologize if I come off as an asshole, douche bag, ignoramus, or am condescending or rude, but I am coping with a lot of things internally right now, and I my brain was wired properly in the first place.

Sooo, option 12 then?

Even after overreacting and having a huge blow out in which I vowed to never return to the site, my withdrawals faded and with some sense restored to me, I realized I didn't have anywhere else left to go, so I returned. I tried to essentially start over, putting the past behind me and apologizing for what a huge ass I had been. It had been my lack of discretion that led me to make a politically oriented thread, it was my fault I got negged, and it was my own issues that led me to blowing up. I could only accept responsibility for my actions and move on.

As I resumed posting things on the site, I soon found myself under criticism and scorn again, but this time not for anything I said, but rather, how much of it I say. My thoughts are unclear and rambling, and I tend to restate the same thing over and over again in an attempt to make sure I'm not misunderstood. Plus, I don't make my points short and sweet but go on to explain the how, and why, and other various dynamics. Now, some people just said that my posts were too long, but others started coming out and insulting me for it. Letting things drop has never been something I have been good at; I've been known to have been forcefully separated from situations to calm down, only to fume and get angrier and then angrier, and then act calm as I'm lead back to class, only to return and immediately resume where I was twice as angry and with half as much sense as I had before. So, when someone insults me on here, I not only refute the claim, but with anger clouding my judgment. When the insults continue, I continue to argue my point, getting more angry and less reasonable each time until finally after a few back and forths I am at the point I would argue that the grass is purple.

Regardless of whether my problems stem from a miscommunication or withdrawals from medication, those problems are my own, and with the surprising lack of empathy from many of the members on this site, it wouldn't be reasonable to expect many of you to take that into consideration. However, that doesn't mean I will let you overlook the one glaringly obvious mistake in your attempts to brand me as an uber-annoying blockhead. Most of my raging outbursts were caused by yourselves. People out of the blue attack my good name and insult my character, flinging petty names like retard or royal douche at me, and then I throw a hissy fit. Even if I do carry on and not let it drop, since I'm playing defense to accusations on my character, it is not my fault they get out of hand since I am not the aggressor and have the right to defend myself.

Many of you that see fit to ridicule me; Radixius, Boggyb, Cmal, Spectre, Marvin666, Bladejtr, among others; are guilty of creating arguments with me by insulting or being rude to me. Then you point to how long I carried it on and how angry I was and say that it makes me a douche. You know what's so ridiculous about that? That makes you the douche, as you were the ones who started insulting me when I was just adding to whatever topic it was at the time, and then when I get all angry and worked up about something, trying to act like you aren't the source of the very behaviors in me you claim to despise. You claim that my angry outbursts are annoying to you, yet you are often the ones that start insulting me or the things I say out of the blue. I take credit for my own behavior, but I do have the right to defend myself from baseless accusations, so you are the ones that let the proverbial monster out of the cage. If you hadn't started insulting me or treating me rudely out of the blue, I wouldn't have gotten all bent out of shape. Take credit where it's due, you insulted and verbally attacked me. Then you use the arguments you started as proof that I am a retard, royal douche, Korean, annoying poster, or whatever else you call me. Guess what? You were the ones that attacked me, so that makes you all those things, and that makes me the victim.

Welcome to the forums, where everyone gets treated that way, have you paid any attention to any threads other than yours? Hell me, Rad, boggy, Rob, etc. insult each other more than you, and we don't get all butthurt about it.

All that being said, there are a few instances where I was the instigator. There was the political thread, all of that was my fault, and there have been a few here and there that I will take at least partial responsibility for. However, when you ridicule me and I get riled up, that's on you! There are two cases where I will admit my initial comments were uncalled for, here and here. I admit I was out of line in making the comments, and I will take responsibility only for the initial comment. The arguments that ensued were each individual's own fault. What makes this even more clear is when you factor in that in both instances, the post directly after mine were guilty of doing the same thing they accused me of to me, and were not posting to make a point, only to irritate and annoy me. These two instances, Bunbun himself got angry at me, but I have explained how he was blaming the wrong person in both cases in PM, and out of respect for his moderator position will not go into detail for me here except to say he got mad at me not just for my initial comment, but all that ensued. When people decide to attack me for doing the same thing they've done to me in the past, any ensuing arguments are a result of there own hypocrisy.

Welcome to the party, you're an asshole too, just like the rest of us.

tltr: Many of you who are calling me names are actually the ones who are annoying, douche bags, or just plain retarded. You insult me to draw me into reacting, and when I do, you then say that somehow makes me the annoying, douche-y, retarded person. Since you were the instigator, and who called me names, all you've proven is that you yourselves are deserving of the names you call me. You were the ones who attacked me, the only name you have proven is fitting of me is victim, and you know it since you are my abusers.
*There is one instance on this site where I am guilty of victimizing another the way I have been victimized, it was to Anto of the Sand when he first started here, and I have apologized and admitted my own wrongdoing in doing so. Anto, I apologize I attacked you and made fun of you in the beginning, it was wrong and very pathetic of me to emulate the same behavior I've been treated to and inflict it on you in an attempt to blend in. You have more class than any of the others who call you names and by dropping to their level I only make myself into the very names they have called me. Forgive me Anto, for I have wronged you, and I am so very sorry that I have done so.

So, in summary you're picking options 12, 8, and 3?