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It seemes to have had a positive impact on me! (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif)
Well, besides that my parents aren't parents for me, and that I'm not much into things like "trust" or "good intentions", of course...
What I want to say is that everything has it's own advantages and disadvantages... Although I have to admit that violence probably belongs to the overall more disadvantageous things...

Eddy: This post is stupid, I have the feeling that my subconscious just wanted me to BAAAAAWWhore....

This post has been edited by Benjiro: Nov 5 2011, 04:44

I am a worthless piece of shit. I've just spent the the last two hours in my car with a girl who I used to have sex with (who happens to also be in a committed long relationship) and after two hours of pouring my guts out over my dismissal from the enforcers, I started trying to make out with her and eventually began masturbating right next to her because of it. And she never stopped me even once. She never said no and just kind of went along with it but she never fuckin said yes either! I feel fucking horrible because of this. I betrayed everything I've never been raised to believe in, everything I personally believe in; every standard I hold myself to. And on top of all that she just kept telling me it wasn't my fault and that I'm not to blame. And yet that doesn't change a fucking thing. I still kept kissing her, I still kept fondling her breasts, I still kept masturbating until I came on her chest; I'm the most worthless piece of shit on the face of the earth. I'm the kind of scum they lock up because of shit like this.

Goddamn it all. (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/anime_cry.gif)

Lacking self control doesn't necessarily make you the worst person ever. This could become one of those "teachable moments." Assuming her significant other doesn't find out and kill you. Not sure why she wouldn't stop you though; that's odd.

Because when she and I first were having sex back in 09, she had "confessed" to me an outstanding crush from when we went to high school together (she was a friend of a friend really). And of course, me being an idiot in my early 20s who can only seem to think with his dick, brushed it off because she put out.

God, Now that I look at all that, I think I might need some real professional help. o.o

I doubt doctors are needed, unless they're prescribing libido-suppressing drugs. Actually, I could probably use some of those myself...

Ugh, shouldn't have had beer with dinner. No matter how much I love my craft beers, I shouldn't have had anything tonight. I should cut back on alcohol entirely until I can deal with this pseudo depression that I'm in.

The details, for any and all that are interested.

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How exactly does this:

I am a worthless piece of shit. [...] I feel fucking horrible because of this. I betrayed everything I've never been raised to believe in, everything I personally believe in; every standard I hold myself to. And on top of all that [...] And yet that doesn't change a fucking thing. [...] still [...] still [...] still [...] I'm the most worthless piece of shit on the face of the earth. I'm the kind of scum they lock up because of shit like this.

Goddamn it all. (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/anime_cry.gif)

come out of this:

[...] I've just spent the the last two hours in my car with a girl who I used to have sex with (who happens to also be in a committed long relationship) and after two hours of pouring my guts out over my dismissal from the enforcers, I started trying to make out with her and eventually began masturbating right next to her because of it. And she never stopped me even once. She never said no and just kind of went along with it [...] she just kept telling me it wasn't my fault and that I'm not to blame. [...] I [...] kept kissing her, I [...] kept fondling her breasts, I [...] kept masturbating until I came on her chest [...]

?

It seems no one was hurt, except what you're doing to yourself with your thoughts...

And I guess her saying yes would change everything? Suppose she wasn't quite in the mood for that word, not so far as to say it, but she felt right?

Well, likely your description leaves out certain things. Definitely it leaves out the standards you say you broke. Perhaps putting them into words will help you clear your mind.

Edit: Ah, the last post. So it was part of a bigger change in your life.
I think you're too hard on yourself, and that you'd be more effective in having fun and giving fun to others if you didn't saddle yourself with so many obligations to fulfill and goals to achieve. Ignore me. (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/tongue.gif)

This post has been edited by Dlaglacz: Nov 5 2011, 12:12

I kind of doubt beating kids really does anything to modify their behavior, outside of maybe shutting them up for a few minutes. I doubt that makes up for what it does to them psychologically. We have enough fucked-up people in the world already, thank you.

Maybe I left too much up to the imagination. I don't mean to advocate beatings. I mean when a kid does something completely bereft of social graces, you shouldn't be in immediate danger of a lawsuit if you take it upon yourself to discipline them.

It occurs to me that I can't explain this very well, which probably means I don't have much of a leg to stand on. The only example I can think of was years ago, when a kid I was responsible for tried to steal stuff from my pocket because he wanted it. I gave him a sharp slap on the wrist and a scolding, and realized that if he'd decided to make a fuss that I hit him, I could reasonably have lost my job.

In my current line of work, I deal a lot with snarky middle-school kids, the type who understand that they technically have a lot of leeway to be little bastards. The kind who know that if they said the right words to the right people whenever they get punished for something, they can cause a lot of mischief. I'm not one of the people who gets into trouble, but it's always a challenge keeping them in line because you can't really discipline them, even when they make empty threats and get into fights, etc.

Slight venting going on. I understand that now. It'd be nice to have the option to fucking slap these kids without it becoming a court matter when they start crossing the line. .-.

I advocate harsher measures for children who seriously fuck up. I don't believe in that bullshit treat as minors crap when it comes to court.

Did Benjiro make or find his avatar?

I also cummed on some choice tits, it was the worst day of my life.

Did Benjiro make or find his avatar?

It would be wonderful to be blessed with enough arts skill for that.... I found it and cut it in proper size. The original was fairy small as well, though---

What I wanted to post
My mother bought a can of coco milk because she thought one could drink it just like that, it's too oily for my taste, though, so I want you to give me interesting recipes for which i could use it before it gets bad.

I'll make some milky rice pudding and eventually improvised chicken curry tomorrow, but I'd still have more than half of the can left.(about 0,3 litres)

This post has been edited by Benjiro: Nov 5 2011, 22:36

I am a worthless piece of shit. I've just spent the the last two hours in my car with a girl who I used to have sex with (who happens to also be in a committed long relationship) and after two hours of pouring my guts out over my dismissal from the enforcers, I started trying to make out with her and eventually began masturbating right next to her because of it. And she never stopped me even once. She never said no and just kind of went along with it but she never fuckin said yes either! I feel fucking horrible because of this. I betrayed everything I've never been raised to believe in, everything I personally believe in; every standard I hold myself to. And on top of all that she just kept telling me it wasn't my fault and that I'm not to blame. And yet that doesn't change a fucking thing. I still kept kissing her, I still kept fondling her breasts, I still kept masturbating until I came on her chest; I'm the most worthless piece of shit on the face of the earth. I'm the kind of scum they lock up because of shit like this.

Goddamn it all. (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/anime_cry.gif)

LOL. You have a series of fleshy holes nearby that you've fucked before and you chose to masturbate?

I'm confused as to what you feel bad about, honestly. Is it because you're a piece of shit for having sex with some slutbag who's in a relationship? Is it because you normally cry after any kind of sex due to psychological mommy issues? Are you one of those stupid fucks who falls in love with pussy after fucking it for so long? Were you drunk when you wrote this and it's probably to late to delete your drunken blathering? Do you think frosting some slut's titties without her permission counts as rape and you feel bad?

This post has been edited by Robbie Pie: Nov 5 2011, 23:08

My mother bought a can of coco milk because she thought one could drink it just like that, it's too oily for my taste, though, so I want you to give me interesting recipes for which i could use it before it gets bad.

I'll make some milky rice pudding and eventually improvised chicken curry tomorrow, but I'd still have more than half of the can left.(about 0,3 litres)

You don't drink coconut milk, it'll give you the runs (in addition to being nasty). You drink coconut water.

You could mix it with some glutinous rice flour, roll the dough into little balls, deep fry, skewer, dip in sugar syrup.

Or simmer it with some bananas and tapioca pearls.

Make a custard out of it -- eggs, sugar, a little vanilla, steam until firm.

Original please?

Original please?

If you were talking with me, then I have to say that I'm sorry.... I already deleted it and can't remember what I typed in on google images... If you wanted it as desktop or smething, that wouldn't work.... it was only about 300 on 500 pixels big....

Damn. I was actually looking for an mp3 player wall paper, and your avatar caught my eye.

Original please?

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This post has been edited by Alberto1: Nov 6 2011, 00:30

Thanks, Albo! (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/happy.gif)

A friend convinced me to finally do some parkour again..... and I had to learn the hard way what little to no physical exceresise for months does to you.... I could hardly do a proper roll.....

It's SET! I'll go climbing tomorrow, no matter how cold it'll be!

Maybe I left too much up to the imagination. I don't mean to advocate beatings. I mean when a kid does something completely bereft of social graces, you shouldn't be in immediate danger of a lawsuit if you take it upon yourself to discipline them.

It occurs to me that I can't explain this very well, which probably means I don't have much of a leg to stand on. The only example I can think of was years ago, when a kid I was responsible for tried to steal stuff from my pocket because he wanted it. I gave him a sharp slap on the wrist and a scolding, and realized that if he'd decided to make a fuss that I hit him, I could reasonably have lost my job.

In my current line of work, I deal a lot with snarky middle-school kids, the type who understand that they technically have a lot of leeway to be little bastards. The kind who know that if they said the right words to the right people whenever they get punished for something, they can cause a lot of mischief. I'm not one of the people who gets into trouble, but it's always a challenge keeping them in line because you can't really discipline them, even when they make empty threats and get into fights, etc.

Slight venting going on. I understand that now. It'd be nice to have the option to fucking slap these kids without it becoming a court matter when they start crossing the line. .-.

Well, yeah, it's not all black and white. A slap on the wrist is so mild it's actually used as a metaphor for mild punishments, so that's fine. My concern is usually with people who just hit their kids to shut them up or make them stop something. If the kid doesn't even understand what they're doing is wrong, they're just getting traumatized, not learning anything. Behavior modification through learning positive values is the goal of child rearing, I would think. If getting slightly physical can serve that sometimes, then okay, but it shouldn't be the go-to move. The kid needs to learn right from wrong, but they shouldn't live in fear of getting smacked around either.

God, I'm an opinionated fuck, aren't I? Good thing I won't be having kids anytime soon.

Thanks, Albo! (IMG:[invalid] style_emoticons/default/happy.gif)

A friend convinced me to finally do some parkour again..... and I had to learn the hard way what little to no physical exceresise for months does to you.... I could hardly do a proper roll.....

It's SET! I'll go climbing tomorrow, no matter how cold it'll be!

You're braver than I. Cold weather usually means a complete halt of outdoor physical activity for me. I mean, the chances were slim before, but they become none until we're well into spring again.

I really should try and get back in shape though. Hell, those free weights and stationary bike are just sitting there.

This post has been edited by FourThirteen: Nov 6 2011, 04:03