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I'd make a Big Bang Theory joke [. . .]

Just...

Don't.

I'm not. I've been to the thread, know you don't like it.

@Brad: But you did know that people here are like that and you rage quit once already. Then you came back less then a week later and stuck it out ever since.

I've told you numerous times not to take this place seriously, but you're just too numb to get it. Life is full of assholes. You either let them affect your life or disregard their faggotry and move on. It's not healthy nor sane to let every dumbass human being affect your life like that.

Grow some balls.

This post has been edited by Rob Itagaki: Apr 8 2010, 06:18

I avoid the real world for this very reason. If I had known this forum could be so cruel and heartless, I would have never set up shop here.

I think the folk here are the nicest people in the world.

Why? Because they tell you the truth, rather than let you wallow in your own delusions. Self-improvement happens when you see the hideous reality of your own being and strive to fix it. However, if you fail to see yourself as the flawed person you are and continue the rash and, some would say, idiotic behavior you are known for, then the reactions won't change, and you'll keep being depressed and your happiness will be forever thwarted.

Honestly, I can't tell if people here are joking, exaggerating, being serious or simply pissed off.

Well put, raddy.

Honestly, I can't tell if people here are joking, exaggerating, being serious or simply pissed off.

All of these at once.

Huh, no wonder I'm so bloody confused.

Side note: I'd totally hang out with Jane Lynch.

Only Lynch I know is Stephen Lynch.

Side note: I'd totally hang out with David Lynch.

Also that, Raab.

Also that.

I find in fascinating how many threads are devoted to the topic 'BradRepko sucks'. Maybe I'm giving the guy too much rope, but I get the feeling that being straightforward (best adjective I could come up with to describe how you guys treat him) isn't doing him any good. Hand him over to me for a few days. I can do the whole creepy touchy-feely guy-friend thing and mold him into something less... crap, I'm out of adjectives again.

That also won't work.

Nothing will work, I'm sure, as everything's probably been tried and has fail't.

So why the hell are you still here?

No where else to go. The only thing I hate more than being picked on is being alone.

I think the folk here are the nicest people in the world.

Why? Because they tell you the truth, rather than let you wallow in your own delusions. Self-improvement happens when you see the hideous reality of your own being and strive to fix it. However, if you fail to see yourself as the flawed person you are and continue the rash and, some would say, idiotic behavior you are known for, then the reactions won't change, and you'll keep being depressed and your happiness will be forever thwarted.

They tell me their interpretation of the truth through the way they see the world. Having 24 years of my own experiences with my problems and over 40 years of my dads, I have gotten to know what I am capable of and what I am not. People who say I am making excuses or using my disability as a crutch have no knowledge of the way the brain really works. They think "Hey, if I can do it, then surely he can do it too.", but this is merely their interpretation of reality. I once ran from reality and convinced myself that I could be as "normal" as anyone else, but I was eventually forced to concede that my brain is irreparably flawed. In time I realized there was no forcing it. One friend told me that I have given up on myself. That couldn't be farther from the truth. He had given up on me. I have accepted my flaws and strive to work around them rather than futilely struggle against the impossible like my father did.


Tl;dr I know enough of how my brain works to know and accept what is impossible for me. To assume that I am capable of handling feelings and emotions the way most people can is an ignorant assumption, since you have never walked a day in my shoes.

I'd be careful if I were you...what the goddess tells you is the truth...may not always be the whole story...

That also won't work.

Nothing will work, I'm sure, as everything's probably been tried and has fail't.

Alright... pharmaceuticals and electroshock therapy. If that doesn't work, I'm out of ideas.

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No where else to go. The only thing I hate more than being picked on is being alone.

They tell me their interpretation of the truth through the way they see the world. Having 24 years of my own experiences with my problems and over 40 years of my dads, I have gotten to know what I am capable of and what I am not. People who say I am making excuses or using my disability as a crutch have no knowledge of the way the brain really works. They think "Hey, if I can do it, then surely he can do it too.", but this is merely their interpretation of reality. I once ran from reality and convinced myself that I could be as "normal" as anyone else, but I was eventually forced to concede that my brain is irreparably flawed. In time I realized there was no forcing it. One friend told me that I have given up on myself. That couldn't be farther from the truth. He had given up on me. I have accepted my flaws and strive to work around them rather than futilely struggle against the impossible like my father did.
Tl;dr I know enough of how my brain works to know and accept what is impossible for me. To assume that I am capable of handling feelings and emotions the way most people can is an ignorant assumption, since you have never walked a day in my shoes.

Believe it or not, this is not my first time hearing this exact story. I don't blame you for thinking certain things are impossible, but you're selling yourself short. You may not think you've given up on yourself, but it sure sounds like you have, or at the very least have stopped trying anything new.

This post has been edited by FourThirteen: Apr 8 2010, 06:58

Well said, FourThirteen. People are always so quick to point out my problems, they fail to comprehend there own. Maybe if they tried treating me with a modicum of decency or respect, maybe they would find I'm not such a bad guy after all. I don't need to be told my problems, I'm well aware of them; have been for more than ten years. What they fail to take into consideration is there own roles and flaws. I'm a pretty nice guy when I'm not fending of personal attacks. Who whines? I do. Why do I whine? Because I am picked on Maybe if they cut the problem off at the source, they wouldn't see this side if me.

I don't blame you for thinking certain things are impossible, but you're selling yourself short. You may not think you've given up on yourself, but it sure sounds like you have, or at the very least have stopped trying anything new.

I approach my problems from a different angle, but I never stop trying to better myself. A direct approach doesn't work however. My dad tried it, and his failure at everything led him to suicide. I swore at a young age I would never follow his path, that I would follow my own. Whether or not that path leads to the same place, I don't know, but I'm trying a different approach than my father did.

This post has been edited by BradRepko: Apr 8 2010, 07:06

I approach my problems from a different angle, but I never stop trying to better myself. A direct approach doesn't work however. My dad tried it, and his failure at everything led him to suicide. I swore at a young age I would never follow his path, that I would follow my own. Whether or not that path leads to the same place, I don't know, but I'm trying a different approach than my father did.

Well, you're off to a good start then. I still think there's a crucial problem with your thinking. You understand you're broken and accept your flaws, that's good. But in my experience, everyone is broken in one way or another. Just because you're broken doesn't mean you need fixing. Do things to better yourself, sure, but don't go thinking you have to knock yourself out, whether you're doing it for you or for other people. We all have an ideal self, and nobody gets there overnight. Hell, I'm still not there. Just give it time. You'd be surprised how much things will change.

Now, as for everyone else, I really think their attacks are well-intentioned. Or maybe they're just a bunch of pricks; it doesn't really matter. My point is this: there's nothing wrong with being sensitive. In fact, some ladies love that in a guy. But you can't let it be a detractor. If you're letting stuff people say about you on a forum get to you, you haven't done enough to build up your mental armor. Again, it's not an overnight thing. However, you can probably speed up the process by watching horror movies, watching porn that the layperson would find horrific (I think there's one called Magical Girl Ai, or something like that. I wouldn't recommend whacking off to it, but it's great if you have a sense of morbid curiosity) and continuing to visit places like this. A little shock to the system is good for you. I know this from personal experience. I can't guarantee it'll work for you, but it has for me.

Wow, that was way too long-winded.

TL;DR - Nut up or shut up. If you read between the lines, there's more wisdom in that phrase than anything Confucius ever said.

This post has been edited by FourThirteen: Apr 8 2010, 07:24

Tl;dr I know enough of how my brain works to know and accept what is impossible for me. To assume that I am capable of handling feelings and emotions the way most people can is an ignorant assumption, since you have never walked a day in my shoes.

People aren't nearly as different as anyone believes them to be. A species will have similar self-aggrandizing and self-effacing tendencies, similar instincts and thought processes, and similar ways of coping with common situations, hence, why they are a species.

Individuality is good some of the time, but it won't offer solutions. How I learned to stop lying for no reason, stop making excuses for my actions, and stop blaming others for what I do is that I broke the ego that comes with individuality. It all came when I started realizing that I was a part of a society where there are others that have the same psychoses or whatever that I had, and I talked to them about it.

And I don't think anyone here sees you as a "bad person", maybe a little misled, naïve or quick to retaliate. But that doesn't make you a foul, abysmal creature, rather, an immature one, meant to be molded. As such, that is what we are trying to do, regardless of if you asked for it or not, and using the methods that we know and are used to. This is honestly how my friends and I talk to each other, and it makes us laugh, or it helps us realize we're doing something stupid or annoying; It is a terse lexicon filled with animosity, yet drained of the enmity that it may cause a layperson. This is how I show I care, and I can't speak for anyone else, but I'm trying to show you two things: One, that people are cruel and mischievous, but that, in turn, doesn't make them evil lest they do it with a black heart and an acid tongue, and two, that you do have problems, same as everyone, but yours are easily fixable and shouldn't be used as an excuse, rather, they can be used for personal gain, to have some humor with yourself, or do fix them and find meaning in what you can be instead of the thing you are currently uncomfortable with.

When I say the things I say, I am not attacking you, or anyone else for that matter, even though I use derisive and negative terms and phrases. I am treating you as one of my friends and one of my family, which is, in all honesty, what every active poster here is to me. I do care about some of you in ways you can't possibly believe, yet I don't consider it strong enough to get me down if someone leaves or what have you. You are part of radixius' family, not the person who types behind his facade, yet radixius is as much a part of my being as everything else about me. radixius is my ego, because that's all I can bare upon the internet without shattering the illusion that I am nothing but pixel and point. radixius is unfiltered, radixius is brash, yet kind, radixius can be the most hideous thing, or the most beautiful soul.

I am radixius. radixius is me. radixius is an asshole. But radixius, and by extension, myself, for one reason or another, has found a way to care about each and every one of you.

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Well, that was weird lolniggers

...So, is this the part where we all jerk off hug?